I am exhausted from work. I am frustrated that I work so much (for someone else now) and have less time with my family. My committment to everything that I do keeps me from slacking on the job so it is hard when I have to leave knowing that things are not getting done at work. I don’t think anyone has ever accused me of being a perfectionist, but I do pride myself in my work and I believe it speaks volumes about my character, morals and beliefs to do my job well. But it also speaks volumes when I say “I have to leave now so I can be with my husband and son.” I know many people that have put their work first so many times that it has litterly torn their family apart.

Speaking of a family being torn apart. I am quite saddened that friends of mine are separating due to a pornography addiction. If you talk to the man, he would probably say otherwise, but the bottom line is his addiction to pornography is more important to him than his relationship to God or his relationship with his wife. I mourn the loss of his friendship but pray that he will see his need to lean on God and not his own abilities.

I could ramble on and on (since I have not posted in a while), but I will leave some thoughts for another time.

One last thought. A friend of mine that I have known since about third grade lost her father this past week. He was about my dad’s age. He had been sick for a while but was doing better so this still came as a shock. It brings you to a shocking reality to think that someone the exact age as my parents just died. I just cannot image my life without my parents. I don’t want to. But one day it will happen.

Sorry for the depressing ending. Next posting may be a bit lighter in nature.